So after a long year, including a miscarriage and countless months of hoping we were pregnant again… We are! I won’t lie, there are some things that you don’t realise you want until you’re told you can’t have them, and we both always thought we wanted to have a baby someday, until we fell pregnant by accident and realised we were ready for this now.
I always thought I wanted to have a baby some day, and so did hubby, but I guess this made us realise if we keep waiting for the perfect moment we may never do this. I have been married previously and would have loved to have a baby then, but he wasn’t ready, then I was never in the right position. I always had family pressure, as they assume being the girl I would marry, have babies and spend my days keeping order in the family home. Do they even know me?!
Don’t get me wrong, I would love to spend more time around the house, I would have it in meticulous order, clean and no laundry piles, but I also like my job and I don’t want to give that up either.
So back to the baby! As I am an over thinker, of course I have been planning, reading and browsing online stores, books and trying to figure out what it is we think we’ll need in addition to what products we should pick. I don’t want to buy everything that opens and shuts, I want all our purchases to have a purpose, we are looking at one expensive item that’s not necessary, but that has value to us as it will offer peace of mind, something I don’t think you can truly put a price on. We have been discussing what kind of parents we want to be, not being critical of those around us, but discussing an idea of the approach we would like to take, and the sort of lifestyle we want to raise a baby in. I realise every parent starts out with an idea if what kind of parent they think they want to be, and although that probably rarely pans out the way they planned, some babies and children have ideas of their own, at least we can aim for this ideal picture, and see how close we end up. We have an array of lovely friends and family looking forward to helping us along the way.
At only 10 weeks I am posting this early, but I am also working on a first trimester post to share the insecurities, the journey we have taken, what we have found useful, and of course all the new feelings and unique experiences I feel I have had. We are both excited, and a little bit scared of what we’re getting ourselves in for, as we start to chip away at some changes around the house, and make new plans for our future, and a bucket list for the rest of this year.